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Volume 4 : Toronto Party Scene
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[08 Nov 2009|09:01pm] |
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No matter how many times you tell me you believe in me, after what you said to me on Saturday I refuse to believe you mean it. Sports are the only thing I'm good at, and you basically told me I suck at them because I had one bad day. You made me feel like a failure, and that's why I'm really upset and angry with you.
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| Brb Smoke |
[08 Nov 2009|04:22pm] |
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1// So you Instant Message me, and I'm telling you something important. And am telling you that I want you to reply my mail. And then your all, Brb smoke (as in cigarette break). In the middle of our conversation, so I say fuck it, I have to go work. I'll talk to you later and sign off. It just aggravated me because when people don't put the same amount of respect into our conversations or friendships that I put in, then your a waste of my time, and that conversation, was a waste of my time.
2// I miss our friendship. But I'd never admit it to you.
3// I think I'm living too much in the past, and am having a hard time enjoying the preseant and the future.
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| Self consciousness, and ways to combat it? |
[08 Nov 2009|05:05pm] |
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Okay, so I've been with my boyfriend for about 16 months now, and we've been sleeping together for 14 months of our relationship. Before we got together, I hadn't done anything more than kissing, so everything sexual has been my first time with him.
It took a long time for us to get to a point where sex "worked" and it wasn't causing me immense pain and was starting to feel good.
Now, sex is great! But I'm still SO self conscious. I find I can only orgasm if we're in a position where I'm not facing him. I was on top, facing him last night and was SO close, but I just couldn't come. It's so frustrating. I love him so much, and am so comfortable around him, so why do I feel like this?
Anyone got any advice?!
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| sexy/memorable comments and compliments |
[07 Nov 2009|07:25pm] |
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What are the best sexual comments/compliments you've ever received? You can list anything: a comment about your technique, about how much your SO loves you, anything you've heard from someone that made you feel good and happy (and, I hope, turned you on even more).
1. The first time G got a good look between my legs, he said, "That looks like the last popsicle on earth."
2. A comment I've heard more than once is, "You have perfect/pretty/lovely/spectacular breasts." That makes me happy.
3. M loved nothing more than to go down on a girl, so it was hugely gratifying to me when he paused in the middle of giving me the best oral sex I had ever received in my entire life to say, 'I could eat you all day; [you taste] nice and sweet,' and then he went back to giving me the best oral sex I had ever received in my entire life.
4. The first time he made love to me, my boyfriend said, "I didn't expect you to be so sensitive." And that, of course, made me even more sensitive to every lick and kiss and touch. Mmm.
5. My boyfriend's very reserved/quiet/self-controlled, so it was a compliment to me when I gave him a massage for the first time and heard him groan appreciatively. I was very wet immediately. And now I'm wet again just remembering it.
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| fisting |
[05 Nov 2009|06:46pm] |
Hey, this is my first here, so here is some background info before I go into my tangent and ask for some advice. My name is Elie, I'm a senior in high school, I'm in a relationship with a guy I've been with for a little under a month in a half. We are very compatible, especially sexually, we both want to explore this area, but some of his ideas scare me (even if they turn me on.)
Like fisting.
So my boyfriend and I are meeting up tomorrow night, and we will be having a lot of sex. One thing that makes me nervous though, he suggested trying fisting the other night. Now, in the past I have never done it, nor have I ever wanted too, it sounded so painful and masochistic, I could never understand why anyone wanted to do it. (Which I now realize was close minded of me.) Because the moment he suggested it, it was probably the most phenomenal idea I'd heard all week.
Now, I really want to try it, and we plan on it this weekend, but I am still very very nervous about this idea. It's a 50/50 thing. Half excited, half scared as fuck.
Also, my boyfriend is, well, huge. I've only been with two people previous to him, and it'd been a year since I had sex the first time we did it, we weren't very rough, but afterwards I was bleeding a little bit, same with the second time. The third time we hung out, I was sick and wasn't up to much so he fingered me, but I bled from that too.
Does anyone have any ideas as to why this is happening? I'm sorry, I haven't checked the memories on this question yet.
And because of this bleeding thing, is fisting a safe thing to do still?
Sorry for rambling so much! I just really don't quite know what I'm doing with this stuff.
Oh, also, when reading the memories, I frequently saw it mentioned to use a glove. Is a glove necessary? I'd really preferr not to use one, and same with lube. I honestly produce a lot of that myself, I doubt we'll need it. Or are those absolute necessities for something like this?
I've been through and I've read the memories, and they have helped me on the mechanical aspect of this, but I was wondering if anyone would be willing to share stories/personal experiences to help comfort me? This idea really does make me nervous, despite how excited I am. Is it safe? Have you tried it and enjoyed it?
(sorry for such a long post!)
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| Going nuts b/c of lack of sex |
[05 Nov 2009|11:02am] |
So, my boyfriend of 9 months and I just transitioned from long distance (194 miles) to LONG distance (1888 miles). I used to be able to visit him once every one or two weeks. Now I may not see him for quite a while (at least until January).
Now here's my problem: I have a very high sex drive which my boyfriend has a hard time keeping up with even when we can see each other. Now that he's physically unreachable, I don't know how to deal with my sex drive. He has already said that he is not ok with an open relationship, so I cannot deal with it that way. It's not about orgasms for me. I masturbate frequently and have no problem giving myself orgasms. Regardless of how frequently or infrequently I masturbate, the longer I go without sex, the more I cannot stop thinking about it. I'm already having a hard time dealing, and I feel like I'm looking at all the guys around me like they are steaks and I am starving.
How do you guys subdue your sex drive/get your body/mind to focus its attentions elsewhere?
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| Being a mistress/dirty talk |
[05 Nov 2009|09:26pm] |
So, I've started playing with this guy who is really submissive.
Trouble is, I'm generally the submissive one in my relationships.
I find the idea of dominating a guy extremely hot.
But I just don't know how to go about it.
I get shy, which is really strange for me because I'm not generally a shy person. I find it hard to be blunt about things, and the idea of telling him how much of a bad boy he's been, and how he needs to be punished, kind of makes me giggle when I go to say it out loud.
We've played with riding crops and whips, but he wants to be tied up and have a real hardcore dominatrix experience.
It really doesn't make sense because I have these dominating tendencies, but when I try to put them into action, it just kind of fails.
So any tips on how I can slowly easy myself into it, or what kind of things I can say to him, what I should do, etc, would be great. I think its the verbal part that I'm having the most trouble with... I just don't know what to say. And how to say it without feeling like an idiot.
I did check the memories, and found a lot of great information. I'm just wondering if anyone else has had this problem, and how they've got around it. The idea of roughing him up is so appealing to me, and I want to do it so much! I just don't know where to start. He hasn't had too much experience with it either, so he hasn't been very helpful when I've asked him about it. Lol.
Thanks in advance!
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| Life goes on... |
[08 Nov 2009|08:22pm] |
As much as I love my mum and dad, no matter what I try to do, this place doesn't feel like home anymore. I'm old enough to move out but I don't want to stuff my old job and move far far away from here back to a city where I belong.
I'm not JUST saving up to go to New York in January, I'm saving up to move out within the next 6 months too.
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[08 Nov 2009|11:47am] |
1. I don't like you and I wont ever like you. You hot and very mature for your age but I can't date someone with the same name as me. Also as my friend said "You only have eyes for your boyfriend and blonds." (even tho my boyfriend isn't blond.) I don't know why I can't tell you I have a boyfriend. Maybe I like the attention?
She invited me to a party last night...I could have gone but I didn't.
Secret: I lied to you about my family having a brake down just to get out of it. Now I feel like a bad friend.
I have a very awkward love life.
2. Congrats on your move baby<3 I'm happy for you.
Secret: I'm a tad bit sad because that involves a farther drive and I drive you home all the time. T_____T" I wish gas wasn't a big deal.
3. I'm a bitch and I'm sorry.
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[08 Nov 2009|01:47pm] |
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i heard them talking.
i listen to everything they say... even when they think i'm sleeping, i don't think i've ever felt so betrayed. i thought they were my friends... i'm back to having nothing. i think i like it better this way.
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[08 Nov 2009|05:30pm] |
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I actually despise all but one of my exes. and that one was the one who broke my heart.
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[08 Nov 2009|04:21am] |
I'm waiting for the day where you actually have the courage to apologize to me instead of me coming to you for something I didn't do... to show you actually value me &don't want to lose me.
&You owe me because I've been paying for your meals every time we've went out to eat multiple times.
I'm so broke now, but, I was trying to be a good friend.
You owe me those matching Michigan tattoos you said we were going to get.
'Til then, I will never talk to you, EVER.
I try too hard.
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[08 Nov 2009|03:21am] |
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I'm still awake because I want him to see me in my window when he gets back into his building.
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[08 Nov 2009|03:00am] |
1. I'm really jealous she got his virginity. If I had been able to hold on for a little longer, that would have been me.
It's actually nothing to do with him, and more to do with the fact I'm scared of facing the college world as a virgin. Really scared.
The 27th of this month was the day we vowed we would have sex. We'll see if he remembers.
2. I think I'm going to give him a chance.
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[08 Nov 2009|06:20pm] |
My family's unrealistic standards regarding portion size are stopping me from losing weight. But whenever I try to broach the subject rationally, I get labeled as anorexic.
Sometimes it really makes me want to move out :(
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| Dangit WalMart! |
[08 Nov 2009|01:54am] |
As much I enjoy working for you (seriously, working around my college schedule = love), WHAT THE SHIT AT PUTTING UP CHRISTMAS STUFF EVEN BEFORE HALLOWEEN.
I'm sure more stores do that as well, but I can honestly say it really upsets me.
May seem silly, but come on. It's Halloween, then Thanksgiving, THEN Christmas. Halloween/Thanksgiving are just as important to me.
Also, I feel as if Christmas is just about getting a shit-ton of presents now for a lot of people and has become a corporate holiday.
I really hope kids who celebrate Christmas don't have just a mindset of that.
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